Dad's Burial

We had dad's burial on yesterday(3-25).....it was just a family affair...but was really nice...and gave me some closure. The kids are on spring break this week....so it was the best time to go to Texas. We still have to finalize dad's estate...but that can be done later. I still have alot of anger about the way things were handled by several different people....and when the time is right...I will let them know how I feel. I was close to my father....real close...and his wishes were simple...and I believe that anyone that loved him...or said that they loved him.... should have obeyed those wishes.

I made dad this spray to cover his grave while the dirt is settling and the grass grows back....its made of sunflowers, gerber daisies, blue bonnets.....and has wheat and a brown raffia bow to make it country. I know dad loves it....he always loved the homemade things I would make him!! I can see his smile now...... :)

Dear Daddy.....

I miss my friend.....
The one my heart and soul confided in....
The one I felt the safest with....
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again....
And let the light back in....
I miss my friend....


I can't put into words how much I miss you. If I could turn back time....I would....I would go back years....just so I would have you to hold, to love, to laugh with over and over. I know that is selfish...but its just how I feel. You were my best friend....the one I called everytime I needed advice...or just to hear that I was right when Keith and I would get into a fight. I find myself saying that I am glad that you didnt suffer...or that you werent ill...but actually.....I almost wish that I would have known...had some kind of warning...that way...I could have been with you. There was so much more I wanted to know from you....I just always thought I had lots of time. I don't know how to go on....I feel lost...so lost....I depended on you for sooo much...and without you here....I have a black cloud in front of me. Will this ever change? I try to pray....but can't quite find the right words....all I have is unanswered questions. I miss you....and will always love you!!

Love, Cathy