Dear Brandy,

Today makes 6 months that you were taken from us! I still miss you today as I did the morning after your accident. I still look for your car at school and at clinic when I arrive in the morning. I still dont understand WHY??? Why you? Why was I the one talking to you on the phone? Why didnt I do more with you? Why did you have to die in such a minor accident? WHY? WHY? WHY? I have so many questions....and NO answers.

I feel so selfish at times hurting and missing you....because I know that my feelings are nothing in comparison to what Emmaleigh and Cody are feeling or have felt these past 6 months. They now have to grow up without a mom. Duke is now left without his spouse, his soul-mate, the woman that he depended on so much. I can't fathom what they must feel and how much hurt that consumes them.

We are now approaching the end of school....and I feel as excited as I know I should be...because you were suppose to be beside me....me, you and meg...thats the way it was going to be. We were going to work together...and be friends for a lifetime.

We are having a moment of silence for you in the pinning ceremony....but it will never replace having you there. I miss your calls, seeing you at school, but I mostly miss just being your friend and knowing you were there if I ever needed you.

I know you are in a better place, and I know we will meet again someday.......but I still cant help but miss you and wonder why you..........

Middle of April....Already??

I cant believe how fast this year is going! The last few weeks have been good. I was on spring break the week after Easter....and was sick the whole time.....so thats why I havent posted. I was suppose to make up clinic but my instructor sent me home...so I have to make up 2 days in May before I graduate!! :)

Tidbits from this week:

Kaitlyn lost her first tooth on 4-9. She was so excited...she has had this loose tooth on the bottom for almost 3 weeks now. I went to pick her up at daycare and there she was smiling with a whole in her mouth.....she was proud. She put the tooth under her pillow and the tooth fairy left her $3 for it.....must have been a pretty good tooth....LOL!~

Kase has had a pretty good week....he wasnt too happy that Kaitlyn got money and he didnt...so he went arond trying to get his teeth to come out. I and his teacher tried to explain that biting somone or hitting yourself wont make your teeth come out....so we will see if this fazes out...!! He told me last night that the tooth fairy was going to bring him money anyway....even though he didnt loose a tooth....oh what to do...its so hard being a child...:) Maybe I can turn his focus to his bday coming up....he wants a John Deere Camo party so he says.....:)

Coby did #2 in the potty for the first time on Wednesday (4-9). He has being peeing in it...he would just put on a pull-up to poo. I think he might have been a little scared...and the potty was too big. So after several attempts and me refusing to buy more pull-ups.....he used the little insert seat and did it. We gave him a book....and whala....ever since then....he says gotta go poo...and goes and puts the insert on...and gets up there like a big boy. YEAH....what an accomplishment!! I have realized we need to work on peeing sitting down....because he doesnt point it down.....YUCK? :( OH well....I dont mind cleaning up.....I am just glad the day has come to NO MORE DIAPERS!!!!!! : ): ) : ) : ) : ) : ) : )

I called Chelsea and she doesnt seem interested in coming this summer to visit us....all she really talks about is her little boyfriend, Brian....I knew this time would come...it just seems like its still too soon for me. I told her I loved her and that it was ok..... (I've been there....one day she will realize...family should come first)

I finished clinic on Wednesday at NOMC (funny alot happened on Wed....LOL) We start the Nursing Home tomorrow for 6 days and then thats it. We finished Geriatrics on Friday.....so we only have 2 classes left....YEAH......there is a light.......-------->

Where has the last month gone to???

I cant believe it is already the end of March and April is just around the corner. Time has flown by....I havent posted in a while either!!

Things are pretty much the same....school, home, sleep....get up and do it all over again....LOL The good news is I only have 5 clinic days left at North Oaks hospital and I have 6 days at a local nursing home then CLINIC is OVER!!!!! YEAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! We will still have class....but gettting up at 5AM will be over!! I am not a morning person.....not one bit!!!

Spring break started last wednesday....and we go back to school on Thursday the 27th! I have to make up some clinic days so my spring break ends tonight....:( Oh well.....as long as I can see the light at the end of the tunnel....I am cool with it!!

Keith and I took the kids to the zoo on saturday..... it was very exhausting but they loved it...and thats what it is all about...right?

Easter was yesterday....we went to church and Eric and Jenny did an Easter hunt for the kids afterward! The wind made it a little chilly....but all in all they had fun. I took pictures of them and their easter baskets once it warmed up a little...and let them play outside most of the day!!

~LIFE IS GOOD~

Scrapfest 2008

Well this weekend was Scrapfest in Mandeville. I had soooo much fun....I didnt want it to end. The week went by so slow....I guess because I was soooo excited about scrapfest. Kristal met me there....it was nice to finally meet her. We had been talking for 2 years over the computer and by phone but never got a chance to meet since she lives 2 hours away.

At our table was a lady from MS....near where Kristal lives....she and the ladies that owned Remembering Moments were so nice. I will have to make it a point to go to Petal MS and visit them all. On Saturday we met some ladies that were from Homa and Thibodeaux, they were setting at our table too. I got to meet Dawn and Tara from Scrapbook Addict.

This hobbie brings strangers together and make friendships that last a lifetime.....I LOVE IT!!!

Is it Sunday ALREADY?????

WOW....it seems like the weeks go by faster and faster. Today has been a non-productive day. I finished up my project for school. I ran to the store to get ink,pull-ups and picked up some scratch remover stuff for my car. I removed the scratch....but the metal is dented a little....so I am going to take it by a shop next week to see what it will cost to knock it out!! Oh I hate it when things like this happens......!!

Scrapfest is NEXT WEEK!!! I cant wait...Kristal is meeting me there and we are spending Friday and Saturday night in Covington so we can just get up and scrap ALL DAY!!! YEAHHHHHHHH

Week 2-11 thru 2-16

What happened to last week?? It just flew by.......

Here's a recap!

Monday 2/11 thru Wed 2/13

I was in clinic these 3 days. I got to be a patient advocate this week. My patient was needing a pacemaker and his VA insurance wanted him transferred....well to make a really long story short.....he was still there when I left on Wed. I hope all has went well for him.

Thursday was Valentine's day.....I stayed up till 1030 filling out Valentine's for the kids parties. Ya know I never thought about all the parties and presents and MONEY that goes into having 4 kids....LOL!! All went well.....I missed 1st peroid of class so I could take Kaitlyn to class with all her stuff for the party. Keith got me a small box of chocolates, reece's cups, and sweethearts......on his way home.....for me for Valentine's day. It really didnt bother me....because he did soooo well for my birthday....my head would have exploded if he would have remembered 2 holidays in the same year! We were supposed to go out to eat....but he ran into someone he used to know....and didnt get home till 5PM....so we ended up arguing....and I ended up eating out by myself. I went to La Carretas in amite (Mexican Food) and had a Strawberry Margarita....that was nice.

Friday....2/15

We ordered our nursing pins today.....I was sooo excited. I cant wait.....can you believe we are already half way thru Feburary? It was a short day today in class....so I went to get my hair done after class....and had it cut short...(will post a pic shortly). I really like it....maybe now I will wear it down more. After that....same ole...picked up the kids...came home.

Saturday 2/16

Went to the bank to withdraw out our income tax. I met up with Amy and we had lunch.....was really nice...we havent did that since before Christmas. I stop by the store on the way home....and I dinged my new car with a buggy....oh well.....I think it can be fixed easily....after all its just a CAR right??? Keith took the kids to Juan's daughter's bday party....so I stayed home and worked on my project thats due monday.

TGIF

This week has been sooooo long!! I guess since I was out of school on Monday and Tuesday due to Mardi Gras....it just seems like it.



Well we finished Mental Health today at school!! YEAHHHHH!! I am counting down....we have about 10 weeks left of nursing school till graduation. Oh that day can not come soon enough for me!! Though I have come to know a new family.....and I will miss being with them everyday.....I have such a greater desire to be a nurse. A passion that envolves making a difference in someones life! Maybe even save someones life along the way. I have wanted to be a nurse since I was in high school. :) I worked as a CNA for years while going to nursing school part time back home in Texas. If I could change one thing...it would be that I would have finished school before my kids came along because it really does put alot of strain on a marriage, friendships, and raising children when you have to study every night. This has been a difficult road....challenging in more ways than one.....but I am thankful for what God has given me....and wouldnt change it for the world!!!!!

~Welcome Everyone~

OK...the time has come to go electronic. I write down most daily thoughts and things in a journal but here lately....I forget to add a note about the day .....due to LIFE and all the craziness that comes with it!! I figured since I am on the internet either at home or at school, then I would start blogging my thoughts and save a few trees along the way....:)!!

Well Chelsea turned 14 on the 3rd....its so hard to believe my first born is now 14 years old. Where has the time went to? She has blossomed into a beautiful little lady. I hate being away from her and not being their for her daily routines, but I have learned that I must allow her to make decisions on her own so that she will one day be a responsible adult.

I turned 31 on Tuesday. It really didnt fill any different that turning any other age....ya know I am officially in my 30's!!....[wow...I remember thinking that 30 was old...LOL] We went out last weekend and celebrated mine, Megans, and Suzannes birthdays with Mexican food and daquries at La Carretas!! Good times....oh I miss that about being back home!!

To My daughter Chelsea:

You have turned into such a wonderful young lady. I know that being a teenager is hard and you may feel at times that life sucks...but I promise it will pass. One day you will be grown and those times will only be memories....so enjoy this time in your life. Being your mother has been a blessing and a trial at times....you have taught me so many things, about MYSELF as well as being a mother. I am so glad to be your mother....and if I was given the chance to change anything about my life...I would never change the fact that you are my daughter....my first born! I love you and no matter where we go in life.....THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE!!! Love, Mom