Dear Daddy,

I have been thinking about you alot lately....sometimes its a smell, a song, or a memory that comes flooding into my mind. Life seems sooo much harder now that you are gone...really can't tell you why...except that it was always nice to here your thoughts or opinions...even though sometimes you would give too much opinion... :) I guess just that little bit reassured me that I was making the right choices....being the best mom....or just living my life the right way. I can't explaing it...because I get advice from mom...and my friends...but it just doesnt seem the same....I guess the difference is that you are gone... Yes...I can admit your gone....I have accepted it..... but still after 3 and 1/2 months....I find myself reaching for the phone to call you...because we havent talked in a while. WHY?

I am angry....angry that I live so far away and couldnt be there more....angry that I missed our call the sunday before you died.....angry that I couldnt see that you were sick...I am a believer in all things happen for a reason....but I can't find that courage this time.....

I miss you....more than I ever thought I would....more than you ever thought I would...more than the waters that occupy the earth....more than the number of people who live on earth.......I REALLY MISS YOU!!!

I pray that time will help me....and GOD will lift this tremendous weight off my shoulders...thats all I know to do....because you arent here to guide me this time.....

I love you daddy.......

Dad's Headstone

Well dad's headstone was placed this week. Such a bittersweet moment. I can't wait to see it in person!!

Fishing Trip

The kids went with Keith a few weekends back on a camping trip at Beaux Bridge. They stayed at a cabin which had an enclosed back deck...so the kids could fish all day. Kaitlyn and Kase got kinda bored into the second day...but Coby woke up at 6AM even on Sunday ready to fish!!!