Starting Over

Well its came to that time where Keith and I have decided that we are "officially" over. I know we have been apart for over a year...but we never really talked about actually not being a family again someday. He had asked us to try...and I thought we were going to....and go to counsceling....but he decided that he would rather move on. I am not going to lie...it was a shock! I even cried! But the reality to the situation is that we have so much anger between us that we cant get past it. We didnt get to try counsceling....but I am not sure that would have worked. I left because I was unhappy. I knew then that we could possible never be together again. I just forgot how much it hurt when you do come to the realization that its over!! I guess I just have been caught up with other things that I didnt realize we were headed down this path. I just want to raise my kids with love and compassion....and them have both parents. If that means we have to do it from seperate homes....then I guess that is the way it must be. I am scared though...not of being on my own...but because I am so far away from my family. I have to rely on him and his family to help with the kids, if anything happens to me...and I don't like that feeling. I have lots of friends who are great...but I can't put them out....3 kids is alot!! I still love him....LOVE was never the issue...it was that we are from two completely different up-bringings....and it has caused lots of resentment.

So now what? Well I think its time to go back to school. I think I am going to take this time to finish getting my RN degree. Right now I don't want to date or even think about meeting someone. I am lonely.....but I just want to take time to reflect and walk with the Lord and see which road he has paved for me. I am going to pick up extra shifts when I don't have the kids so I won't be home all the time...so that will help some. And then with school...I will really be busy with studying and earning that RN degree. I am looking forward to this next chapter in my life. I truely believe all things happen for a reason. Our lives are written before we are ever born. So for me this is another chapter closing in my life. A new one is waiting to open! :) I am ready to walk with the Lord and embrace what he has in store for me!

Coby lost his first tooth

Coby has been waiting forever on a tooth to fall out so he could get some money from the 'tooth fairy'. Well with a little assistance from mom....he lost both of his bottom front teeth last night. They were so loose...he couldn't eat...so it had to be done. He looked in the mirror and said 'they look gross now...I don't like it'.....I said 'well son...I can't put them back!' When I said its time for bed...he ran... grabbed his teeth and was asleep in 5 mins. No, 'mom, can I sleep with you?' Or gettin' out of bed a million times!.....oh I wish he could put teeth under his pillow every night....LOL

Chelsea's Senior Paw Print

These are painted for seniors on the sidewalk at the high school! Go Seniors 2012!!!

Toot Toot....

Ok...that was me...tooting my horn....just kidding. I am super duper excited!! I have been published on a birthday blog. I submitted Kase's FISHING PARTY...that I put together...and she chose to add it to her blog!! I am so tickled!! I have always loved to add those special touches to my kids parties to show them how much I care. Here is a link if you want to go check it out....

http://www.thebirthdayblog.net/2011/06/fishing-party.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+TheBirthdayBlog+%28The+Birthday+Blog%29"

While you are there....take a look at all the wonderful parties!!<